Dear Bean-

At the time of my writing this, you’re 17. Why does that age seem so much older than 16? We’re going to have your senior pictures taken in a few days. We’re looking at colleges soon. 

And I’m still 100% in denial about it all.

When Scorch was going through all this, I took solace in the fact that you were still home with us. That relentless ticking clock took a year off – but now, it’s moving forward again and I’m not a fan. You’re my baby – how can you be a year away from graduating? It’s impossible.

This past year, with just the three of us at home while Scorch was at college, was weird. And quiet. And clean- so clean. Your bathroom was pristine and you loved it that way. It was also amazing- it is such a joy to have these two years of just you in the house. I adore our chats on the couch, car rides and one-on-one time together and I’m so, so glad we have it.

Your junior year was a good one! Aside from chem, you didn’t hate school, you kept busy with volleyball and unified sports. You’re never going to be the biggest fan of high school and that’s Ok. You don’t have to be. You’ve kept your friend group tight, while also branching out with other people in a group. 

You attended all the dances, faked enthusiasm at football games, and got your first job! You discovered very quickly that you much prefer a life of leisure to working, but you keep showing up and putting the time in! That said, I have no doubt you’ll start searching for a sugar daddy as soon as you can. 😉 

Senior year starts in 6 weeks or so, and we’re starting to talk about colleges and what path you’re going to take to get there. The career you have in mind right now has a gazillion different paths so I have no idea how this is going to look for you, but that’s part of the fun! 

This year, I hope:

• You have fun. Whatever that looks like for you. Football games, or quiet nights with the girls – there is no wrong way to experience this year as long as you enjoy as much of it as possible!
• You experience new things. You’re going to be interning at a hospital all year- try your hand at everything. See what you like and what you don’t like – it’s all invaluable. 
• You stay close with your girls. A lot is going to change in the next year, but these friendships don’t have to. 
• You meet new friends. It’s a big, wonderful world out there- don’t be afraid to let others in. 
• You relax. Truly. You don’t have to have everything figured out right this minute. Your life is going to unfold like it should and it may not look anything like you expect- and that’s OK. Take it from someone who has spent this whole year letting go of things I can’t control – do your best to steer the ship, but don’t be afraid to go along for the ride.
• You know how deeply you’re loved. No matter what, we love you. We support you. And we’ll always be your safe place to land.

So, my darling girl, that’s it! Keep being true to yourself – I cannot wait to see where this wickedly crazy, awesome life takes you.

All my love, 
Mom