Finding Me in Mommy

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A few days ago I got an email from an old college friend. We had lost touch for a long while and were trading the typical what-are-you-up-to-now emails.  He asked me what else I was doing with myself besides chasing around kiddos.

Good question.

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Before I had Scorch- a much wanted, long awaited baby- I had a minor freak out over becoming a Mom.  I wanted to be a Mom so so badly, but I didn’t want to only be a Mom.  I wanted to make sure I was still me, Heather- the individual who reads too much, loves chocolate too much, hates veggies too much and talks much, much too fast.

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4+ years into this Mommy gig and I’ve come to realize that losing yourself to a degree is inevitable.  At first it’s due to necessity. I breastfed both my kids so, for the first few weeks at least, I couldn’t be away for long. Once they started taking breast milk in a bottle, the leash wasn’t so tight but the kids and their needs had to come first.  I was sleep deprived and exhausted and, within months after having both kids, working full time and staying up all night with my crappy sleepers.  Not exactly the makings of a real dynamo, right?

Now that the kiddos are getting older, I can branch out more. I work full time, so my evenings with the kids are precious. But I’m trying. I took a weekly photography class last spring.  I make sure I get to the gym 2-4 morning a week. Girls night with the various friends I’m blessed to have happens at least once a month. My parents are kind enough to keep the kids at least one night every month, so the Hubs and I get a regular date night (and the morning after to sleep in!).

There is more I’d love to do. I’d love to find a book club that meets in the evening hours (so much around here is structured for stay at home moms!). I want to learn how to knit. I’d love to take another photography class. I’ll get there eventually.

Being Scorch and Bean’s mom is the biggest, best part of me- that will never change. But I’m glad the book-and-chocolate-loving motor mouth in me still gets to come out and play!

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About Heather

I adore my family, writing, books, cats, lazy mornings in bed, and chocolate. I'll never say no to breakfast for dinner, long talks with friends and lazy summer days at the pool with family. I've somehow morphed into a crazy sports mom, a skier and someone who lifts weights. My life is often crazy, always awesome and one I'm so happy to be living!

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