My life is normally a little crazier then most. The Hubs has a job that is anything but 9-5 and on top of that we own a small business that he works at at least 3 days a week. I work full time and we have two kiddos, 2 cats and a dog running around our house. Currently we have some huge life altering changes coming up- in June my life is either going to be uprooted and we’re going to move 350 miles away OR the Hubs will get a new job and we get to stay put where we are. The direction my life goes is out of my hands at this point and I have to try to plan for both. So I’m simultaneously looking for a new house, new schools and trying to figure out how to sell our house all the while re-enrolling the kiddos in Scorch’s current school, planning vacations that won’t happen if we move and going on with my day-to-day life.
Yes, my head hurts on a daily basis. I’ve been more stressed then I ever have been in my life. For the first time ever, I’m having trouble sleeping at night because I can’t turn my brain off. Any discussion of the future is prefaced with a “If XX happens, we’ll…” or ended with “…if we move/don’t move.” It’s easy- so very easy- to get bogged down in the details and the stress and the worry.
But worrying and stressing and feeling anxious aren’t natural states for me. I normally err on the side of being too Pollyanna-ish- if that cloud has a silver lining, then I’m bound and determined to find it because my life is good and amazing and one I’m so thankful to be living. So in the the spirit of finding my happy, here is what’s bringing a smile to my face today:
> Having good friends over for dinner at the spur of the moment. The meal was simple, but delicious, and the company couldn’t have been any better!
> Putting my kids to bed early because they are so tired from all the fun things they’ve been doing these past few days- gymnastics, PE class, swim lessons, outside recess, playing with friends, Fire House visits and too much time playing Wii Baseball as a family.
> Spending part of my morning editing pictures of my sweet niece, Lala, and then trying to find the perfect invitation for her Baptism and party with my sister, Red. I cannot wait for the day we’re all together to celebrate her amazing life!
> Anticipating the return of True Blood by reading the Inside True Blood blog. June can’t come fast enough for a lot of reasons!
> Planning a small weekend trip with my kiddos and another slightly longer one just with my Husband.
> Getting told by my shrink that I am the most interesting of all his clients this week (I do believe I should get a certificate for that)!
> Listening to the baby monitor and hearing Bean say goodnight to all her bears and give them all kisses.
> Having Scorch yell for me after I put him to bed because he wanted one more hug.
> Wearing bright red shoes.
> Angry Birds Rio– taking my frustrations out on those damn monkey’s is very therapeutic!
> Knowing that in a year or two from now, all the craziness going on right now will be a distant memory- a small bump in the road.